Monday, November 9, 2009

UGGG!

Ok..So today is a very funky day for me. One of my family members had to go into town today to deal with some really difficult stuff. A sweet baby that we follow and pray for is in surgery. And I just got a phone call that has me very upset. Most likely out of proportion up set due to the other emotions going on.

I try to be a very supportive and understanding mother. Not the easiest job but worth it. I also try to be understanding of their father's limitations. NEVER easy. So today's call was from a family member asking how much time Josie was going to be actually dancing and if we really needed to try to get her father to go see her. I don't care if she was dancing for two minutes or was the main charter, she has auditioned, worked for the past two months, and sacrificed alot to do this show, who cares how much time she will be dancing. You go and watch your daughter take a closer step to realizing her dream. I have not moved two hours away from where we wanted to raise our kids. Moving was his choice, their have been many things he has chosen to miss due to living so far away, but for crying out loud, don't ask me to give him permission to flake on her again because it might not be the main part.

This ballet is very important to her. It is her first time performing for a ballet company, not her studio. Each time he flakes on her he looses another part of her life, that I can deal with, but I just hate to see how hurt she gets after a main event that he doesn't make it too. It has been many YEARS since he has seen her dance, and by her choice she has not seen him in about 2 months, so I really don't know if he could even pick her out on stage, with her growth spurt, costumes and not having seen her dance I don't think he would even know which one she is.

I am probably more upset than necessary, but I a very tiered of hearing how the ticket cost too much, with the long drive it makes it to long to make it to, and how he has to go see his son that day. It just makes me SO sad to see him miss so much of the beautiful little girls growing into amazing young ladies.

Sorry for just venting.. Alone with only children makes the blog world the perfect venting tool.

1 comment:

  1. Hey Faline... you have got to remember one thing... HE IS AN AH!!!! No matter how beautiful, how talented, how wonderful, or how smart the girls are they will NEVER be good enough for him by the simple virtue that they were born girls.. but guess what.. it's HIS LOSE! They are wonderful, talented, beuatiful girls.. in spite of their father!!

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